MY SONIC RAM --- MY
INSPIRATION
Dr.
Gautam Chatterjee
I, the writer,
Gautam Chatterjee remain
at the feet of
PARAM GURU--Sri
Ram
Swamiji
Satyananadji Marharaji
Pujaniya Premji
Maharajji
Dr Viswamitraji
Maharajji
Invocation
O’
Sri Ram
I
bow to thee million times!
You
remain my inspiration
and
aspiration
in
all these life and death journey.
I
feel I am fallen soul
Yet
I play on your lap
So
merciful you are!
In
this life too
you
tested,twisted and tempted
me
for forty years
till
I got the shelter
in
Sri Ram Saranam.
O’
merciful Ram
Thou
are provider
and
shower of bliss
called
‘Ram Ram’!
You
have allowed me
to
collect some gems
and
facilitated to swim
in
Ram Durbar.
The
kindness showered
By
venerable
Swamiji
Satyanandji Maharaj
Pujaniya
Premji Maharaj
and
Dr Viswamitraji Maharaj
who
are guiding me to you---
the
sonic omnipotent!
I
bow to them
day
and night
when
I chant or not
thou
name
O’
Sri Ram
O’Lord
of all
creations
and uncreations
You
are Saraswati
for
me.
Please
allow me to write
my
experiences
of
my Pilgrimage
which
are meant for my brethren
who
are cruising with me
in
the Ram Naam ocean.
O’Lord
O’my
Guru
Please
write
the
pages henceforth.
I
poor soul
have
nothing to offer
but
myself
my
thought
my
pen
my
soul
to
thee!
You
created all
so
you create again
I
remain only a pulse
of
unuttered sound
the
adi nada!
I don’t recall since when ‘Sri Ram’
the celestial name besmeared my innerself! However, my spiritual quest began
when as a child I saw my Grandfather, his tiger-skin mat and the rupa
of Geru-Vastra Sanyasi of Paramartha Niketan School of thought
and my grandmother --the Sanyasini of Radha Krishna order --the Bhakti
Margi. My grandmother left certain notes which narrated the ‘Radha
Shyam Lila’,that sparked my spiritual quest silently. Since my
childhood I saw the most unorthodox devout in my mother who created her own
world of devalaya away from the hustle bustle of ‘Temple and Mantra’
of prevailing world. Yet,she remains a devout of naam of Shakti kind
in her own spiritual way.
In my early teens I used to frequent
many sacred corridors but nothing satisfied me. When I wrote the book ‘Sacred
Hindu Symbols’ I knocked at many doors asking for alms of knowledge.
Yet, to my inner self I remained unfulfilled. Of late wrote a book ‘Cosmic
Vishnu and his thousand names’ with my father and was perhaps the
unconscious beginning of understanding the philosophy of sacred name in the
context of cosmic dynamism! In this venture my father helped me throughout
my writings.
My friend, Prem Singh, with whom I
shared many spiritual discussions over a decade, finally took me to SriRam
Saranam where I encountered the celestial bliss when I met Dr Viswamitraji
Maharaj,who scanned me through and through and showered his blessings.
I started frequenting him in SriRam
Saranam, New Delhi to steal a glimpse of him,though I was yet to get Diksha(initiation)!
I chanted ‘Ram Ram’ for long involuntarily and even experienced
celestial sight of seeing my would be Guru in broadday-light in the sky,when
mortally I was at my lowest ebb!
Before long, I finally disclosed about
on a Purnima day, to Maharajji Dr Viswamitraji that I had dreamt a
dream that he was giving me something .... I wondered what can that be!
Finally, I got an answer from within that the ‘gift’ is nothing but the
eternal Diksha of ‘Ram Naam’. Maharajji blessed and
readily gave me Diksha alone on the celestial Purnima day the 12th
January 1998. I felt I was the luckiest one, though being the most wretched
creature, and thus I was inducted into the most revered school of thought
SriRam Saranam.
O’ Gurudev please allow me to
quote hereunder the experiencing dynamics of my Diksha as
this was not only my initiation but also the beginning of my
pilgrimage.