Sri:
Srimathe Ramanujaya nama:
Dear Sriman Guna Venkat,
I know that a person from mudaliyANdAn vamsam
(???,if so, I envy you to the core) can not doubt HH's motive. The
problem is we(atleast I'm) are not at HH's level. Lot of people
write different nAmAs. Infact, next to nammAzhvAr(just kidding) I
can vouch for the power of the pAsuram "ozhilvil kAlamellAm..." in
granting from alpa to the highest purushArtham. Unfortunately I knew
this pAsuram for a very very long time(without knowing the true
meanings)and I would ask tiruvEnkaTamudaiyAn some material benefits
and He(acted like varadhan) would fulfil it. After I heard the
meanings(atleast to some extent)I felt so cheap about myself.
From then onwards,I had a different frame of mind
(He changed my mind thro' a bhAgavata) and yet He didn't bless me an
AcAryA and I was waiting for it(many births perhaps)for almost three
years after understanding little bit of "ozhivil kAlamellAm". I used
to envy people who write "adiyen ramanuja dasi/dasan". Even when HH
Chinna Jeeyar was right across me and said HH would first do
samashrayanam for me(there were other people who wanted to undergo
too)my samashrayanam was hanging in air due to some mundane external
factors. Then HH also said why don't I come to this place and HH can
spare more time for me,as I had lot of doubts... I was going
restless and I told HH, "if that God makes me wait for more than
this day, there is no relationship between Him and me. He and I are
done forever. If I have AcArya's anugrham, it will happen today
itself". Finally I was so happy that I could spend almost a day in
the viscinity of my AcAryA and I learnt so much from HH and I can
not explain that experience. As sri piLLai lOkAcArya says, "without
an AcArya, bhagavad prApti hangs in air,we will always be in a
dilemma about Him". Once we have the AcArya prApti, we don't have to
worry about the bhagavad prApti!
Why did I say this? I was amazed and felt sri
piLLai lokAcAryA's greatness and SVB 4th prakaraNam only in front of
my AcAryA. Even if our motive is faulty, an AcAryA's grace will
rectify it in due course(didn't AzhvAn go behind the disciple(I'm
forgetting his name,was it vElvetti piLLai?)). It is b'coz of
ahankAram and mamakAram, our buddhi thinks differently(stands in the
way of selfless/flawless service) and my AcAryA told me that only
AcArya's pAda tIrtham can destroy that(while perumAL's pAda tIrtham
takes care of sAttvik,rAjasik,and tAmasik aspects). It is the
attitude that matters for the servitude/dAsatvam.
dAsAnu dAsI
NC Nappinnai
> So my query was not to question Sri .Tridhandi Chinna Jeeyar swamy
> (for which Adiyen neechan has no gnAnam and Anushtanam , totally
> not fit as well), my thinking was mainly to fellow bhAghavadAs
> mind set while writting this nAmA.
> Adiyen Ramanuja Dasan
> Guna
azhwAr emberumAnAr jeeyAr thiruvadigalE saranam
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