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3189:##
'seelam illaach chiRiyaNnElum* seyvinaiyO peridhaal,*
NYaalam undaay NYaanamoorththi* 'naaraayaNaa!' enRenRu,*
kaalanN dhORum yaanirundhu* kaidhalai poosalittaal*
kOla mEni kaaNa vaaraay* kooviyum koLLaayE.      (2)	4.7.1

1. Seelamillaach chiRiyEn- (As humbly referred by our dearest Sadagopan a
week back as "seelamillaach chiRiyEn-) I have no good discipline; I am a
small lowly self; The sins I have committed are HUGE. But You are the
Personification of jnAnA, the Murthy, who swallowed and retained the
entire universe and protected it.  From here, I am raising both my hands
above my head and am paying obeisance to You. I am calling You as "
NarayaNA!" But  Your Divine Physical ThirumEni is not visible to me. At
least why don't You take me there? I know it is all due to my big, Great
sins committed, lack of discipline and I am bound to suffer without being
called by You nor Your showing Yourself to me with Your Beautiful Form.

3190:
'koLLa maaLaa inba  veLLam* kOdhila thandhidum,* en
vaLLalEyO! vaiyaNG konda*  vaamanaavO!'enRenRu,*
naLLiraavum naNpagalum*  naanirundhu Olamittaal,*
kaLLa maayaa! unnai*  en_kaN kaaNa vanNtheeyaayE.	4.7.2

2. EmperumaanE!, the One who keeps giving us the Perennial enjoyment
always to the fullest satisfaction and bliss! Oh VaamanA! - Like that I
have been yelling day and night from here. I have no strength even to call
You now. Please have mercy and grant me to see You to my sinful eyes.
(Having shown Yourself in my mind is not enough- I should see You
physically!)

3191:
'eevilaadha theevinaigaL* eththanai seydhaNnaNnkol?*
thaavi vaiyam konda endhaay!* thaamOdharaa!'enRenRu*
koovik koovi neNYchurugik* kaNpani sOra ninRaal,*
paavi neeenRu onRu sollaay* paaviyEn kaaNavandhE.	4.7.3

3.  Have I committed so many sins even after experiencing so much sorrows
and punishments? I do not know. Even then, even if I have committed
enormous never ending sins, can You,- The Most Capable Lord of mine- The
One who has done the Most Rarest, Wonderful acts before- NOT come to save
me? You are my only savior. DamOdharA, The One who measured the Entire
universe by keeing one Foot here and the Other in the sky!- like that I
have been calling You, remorse with tears rolling down cheeks endlessly-
Okay. Do not show Yourself for my enjoyment. But ATLEAST COME AND TELL ME!
"you are a mahA paapi ". Please come and tell me that word at least.
(AzhwAr refers to His sowlabhyam and praises Him by calling Him DamOdhara-
the stomach that shows the rope marks on it still- rope that was tied by
YasOdhA)

3192:
'kaaNa vandhu en kaNmugappE* thaamaraik kaNpiRazha,*
aaNi sembon mEniyendhaay!* ninRaruLaay' enRenRu,*
naaNamillaach chiRudhakaiyEn* naan ingu alaRRuvadhen,*
pENi vaanOr kaaNamaattaap* peedudai appanaiyE?	4.7.4

4. Thinking of You in my mind alone is not adequate. Please show Yourself
in front of my eyes and make me blissful. Oh My Father, The One who shines
like a Golden Form! How Great are Your Glories! You are The One who can be
enjoyed by incomparable NityasUris, who are unatttached to this
materialistic world; Your form can NOT be seen even by the Great BrahmA,
Sivan et al! You are SO GREATEST LORD! I have no shame to even think of
seeing such Greatest Lord with my eyes- What is the use of my yelling
(with all such enormous sins to my account) to see You?

3193:
appaNnE! adalaazhiyaanE,* aazh kadalaikkadaindha
dhuppaNnE,* un thOLgaL naaNngum* kandidak kooduNGkol? enRu,*
eppozhudhum kaNNa  neergoNdu* aavi thuvarndhu thuvarndhu,*
ippOzhudhE vandhidaayenRu*  EzhaiyEn nOkkuvanE.	4.7.5

5. My father! The One who has the Most strongest weapons with You! Oh
Sarvashakthi JagannAthA! (The One who enabled dEvAs to churn the Big Milk
Ocean!) I have been weltering to see Your Most Beautiful four shoulders
with my eyes. My life is getting dried up. Will You come now? Will You
come at least now? - Like that I am foolishly and anxiously, longing to
see You, Lord!

3194:
nOkki nOkki unnaik  kaaNbaan* yaan enadhaaviyuLLE,*
naakku neeLvan NYaanamillai*  naaLdhORum ennudaiya,*
aakkaiyuLLum aaviyuLLum* alla puRaththinuLLum,*
neekka minRi engum  ninRaay!* ninnaiyaRindhaRindhE.	4.7.6

6. EmperumaanE! Sriman NarayanA! You are staying in my body. You are also
in my jIvan. Not only that; You are also very much present in my senses;
There is nothing in which You do not stay. Forever, at all times and at
all places, uninterruptedly, You are there in everything as an
AntharAthmA. Even after knowing and realizing all these such Great
attributes of Yours, still, I would like to see Your Most Beautiful Divine
ThirumEni with my eyes to my fullest satisfaction. I desire this simply
because I am a useless, ignorant fool  (Ignorant fool- aRivu kettavan-
because had he known completely of Lord's form - anthar bahischatascharya
vyApya nArAyaNaschithah:- He exists everywhere-inside and outside- The
very fact that azhwAr still wants to see Him because he considers himself
as less knowledgeable of His existence.)

3195:
aRindhaRindhu thERith  thERi* yaan enadhaaviyuLLE,*
niRaindha NYaanamoorththiyaayai* niNnmalamaaga vaiththu,*
piRandhum seththum ninRidaRum*  bEdhaimai theerndhozhindhEn*
naRundhuzhaayin kaNNiyammaa!*	 naanunnaik kandukondE!	4.7.7

7. AzhwAr declares here that he has realized Him in his mind! Oh
EmpiraanE! The One who has the Most Fragrant ThuLasi maalai on His chest!
With Your grace and mercy, I got the jnAnam and that led me to know Your
Most Auspicious attribute and obtained ParipporNa Anandham in my clear
mind. My vibharItha jnAnam (of attaching myself to the body and the births
and deaths- its viscious cycle) is all removed. This alone is Not my
desire, Lord! I am not yelling and suffering and calling You with such
names for that alone. With my physical eyes, I wish to enjoy Your
Divyamaana ThirumEni azhaghu beautifully adorned with The Thirutthuzhaay
maalai on that Most Beautiful Chest. (Even while reading, we also long to
see the Lord in that form- Don't we?)

3196:
kandu kondu en kaigaLaara*  nin_thiruppaadhangaL mEl*,
en dhisaiyumuLLa  pookkoNdu* Eththi ugandhugandhu,*
thondarOngaL paadiyaadach* choozhkadal NYaalaththuLLE,*
vaNDhuzhaayin kaNNi  vEndhE!* vandhidagillaayE.	4.7.8

8. Oh Lord!, The One who has The Most Fragrant ThuLasi Garland on Your
body! You should come in the same form for our Anandham as exactly You
show Yourself for NityasUris' enjoyment. While I keep on looking at Your
Most Beautiful Lotus Eyes with fullest blissful satisfaction and
pErAnandham, my both hands will collect the handfuls of lots of fragrant
flowers, gathered from all directions of the world, and shower them most
lovingly at Your Lotus Feet and I will sing praising Your Glories foe ever
and ever. At least to vent our love and bhakti to You, You should come and
show Yourself to us, Your eternal servants. Will You not do that?

3197:
idagilEn onRattagillEn* aimbulan vellagillEn,*
kadavaNnaagik kaalanthORum* pooppaRiththu EththagillEn,*
madavan neNYcham kaadhal  koora* valvinaiyEn ayarppaay,*
thadavuginRENn enguk  kaaNban* sakkaraththu aNNalaiyE?	4.7.9

9. I have never offered any food to those poor hungry people; I have never
quenched anyone's thirst by offering little bit of water; I have never
done any karma yOgham like that; Did I at least stay put in my jnAna
yOghA? No. I could never control my five senses and I always failed in my
attempts. I have never even uttered Your name and performed Nama
sankIrthan. (all this is not applicable for AzhwAr- It is most appropriate
for us- dear ones! He has sung on our behalf!) But my mind, with His grace
has immersed itself in His Glories and has been thinking of Him. It is not
able to get out of that. Even though it is in such a situation, I have
committed so much sins for my disability to see Him and His Divine form in
front of my eyes. Even if He comes, I will still be searching His form
with my both hands and will never be able to see Him.  Where will I see
Him and How? (AzhwAr wishes to hold Him like the way Yasodha held Him in
her hands.)

3198:
sakkaraththu aNNalE enRu*  thaazhndhu kaNNeer thadhumba,*
pakkam nOkki ninRalandhEn*   paaviyEn kaaNginRilEn,*
mikka NYaana moorththiyaaya*  vEdha viLakkinai,* en
thakka NYaanak kaNgaLaalE*  kandu thazhuvuvanE.	4.7.10

10. He showed me His ChakrA and he enslaved me. Oh Lord, EmperumaanE!
-Like that I am seeing in all directions to see You and hug You with both
my hands. I am weltering and remorse with tears. MahApaai, I am. I am not
able to see His Divine Form. But I have seen Him in my jnAnakkaN (the
inner eye). That Emperumaan is the brightest light of VedAs. He is the
Personification of JnAnA. I will always enjoy Him with my inner eye.  With
that vision, the inner vision, I will hug His Beautiful Body tightly with
both my arms. Because of my prEmA for Him, I am also suffering being
unable to see Him physically. (AzhwAr says: The jnAnA and Bhakti have thus
hugged me and held my neck tightly)

3199:##
thazhuvi ninRa kaadhalthannaal* thaamaraik kaNNan_dhannai,*
kuzhuvu maadath then_kurugoor* maaRan sadagOpan,* sol
vazhuvilaatha oNdhamizhgaL* aayiraththuL ippaththum,*
thazhuvap paadi yaada vallaar* vaigundham ERuvarE.    4.7.11         

11. Even if I decide to leave, it appears it will never go away- like that
the love for Him has grown in me; - Thus Sri SadagOpar has sung thousand
pAsurams in excellent Tamil on Emperumaan KaNNa Piraan, The Red Lotus
Beautiful Eyed Lord. Out of those 1000, readers of this set of ten
pAsurams (and its meanings) will DEFINITELY reach Sri Vaikuntam.



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